This is the first boy I ever fell in love with. He made me a mom and a woman! He taught me how to be strong in time when most wound fall and crumble to the ground! July 25th, 1999 at 7:58pm this young man came into my life! Not able to talk to walk or tell me what he thought of me. He and I spend every waking moment together. He was my first cuddle buddy. He gave and still gives me so much joy. I remember him being a few weeks old and having a terrible time sleeping at night, I would lay him on my chest and hum Amazing Grace until he fell asleep! He needed to be close to me he needed my arms around him to make him feel safe in the big old world and I just happend to be the one person he wanted! God gave me this little boy to grow up myself, before him I was irresponsible and very immature. But, when he was put in my arms all I could think of was how me and him were going to rule the world and make it ours. And that everything I did it would be for him! When he was hurt or sick I kissed his boo boo's held his hand and told him that I will always be with him and I would never let go! He as my little man and no one could ever take that from me. He was there for me in so many ways, when I was sick he was there to hold my hand and make sure that I felt better. He always played the role of the man of the house even at a young age! He was there for me when times were horrible he and I got through things that no kid should ever have to go through. But, he always looked at me with eyes filled with so much love. This young man is a big part of my strength! He is now 11 years old! And has been living with his father full time for the last 3 1/2 years. He has not seen me or spoken to me during this time and alot of things have been said to him about me and about my life! But only god can judge me in the end and I pray for and to my son each and every night! I know deep down in my heart he can hear me and he thinks of me as much as I think of him! He is truely be the ANGEL OF MINE!
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